I want you to know how much you hurt me. I remember coming up to you and Ash on the grass oneday and talking to you guys. Something i never did. Thats when i frist started to trust you/That night i talked to you on aim. and you helped me more then i could imagine, and i have to thank you for that. But...thats when the lies started. To bad i was to blind to see it. At first things were ok. We'd chat now and then. Then.....you fell for one of my firends. YOU asked me to talk to her. I did. She liked you. But didnt want to date you. Around this time i had told you i liked one of your friends, and asked you not to tell b.c iknew id be made fun of. Yet you did. Said you wanted me to feel pain. It was awful. He was cruel. You said you where sorry and i let it go, after all i told myself. you where hurt. Everytime something went worng, you would use me as a punching bag. i let you, b.c i thought you where my friend. I wanted to be there when anyone needed me. I cared about you. I thought you where my friend! Then you went over the line. You told me that i wasnt good enough, and that you couldnt be seen with me. That i was too fat, and too ugly. That my social rank was to low. You knew what words to say so that they each cut me like a knife. You knew what i was dealing with. So you used that agianst me. Then came the rumors. Ash got mad at you and refused to dance with you at lessons. You said you where sorry. Worte me a long apolgyy. Like a fool i thought you ment it. You always forgave me when you liked a firend of mine or needed someone to mentaly beat up. For the longest time i thought you where right. I want to know why. WHy lie to me? Why hurt me so much? Why enjoy it so much? After lift you where a great guy. That was prob one of the few times you where my real friend. to bad it didnt work, did it? You stayed my friend for HER b.c i was great friends with her. That ended and i wasnt needed, out i went. You still liked summer girl and i was back, that didnt work. now im here.You are such a Jerk. Im worth so much more then you. Why? A) I don't use ppl B) I don't enjoy hurting others. C) I dont are what "soical group" someone comes from. if we are friends, im happy. Im done letting you hurt me. I also, not that youd care, forgive you for hurting me. For lieing to me. For using me. For using me as a punching bag. im DONE. I wish you all the luck, and i pray you become comeone who does not look on the outside, but in the inside.Its kinda dumb to NOT be my friend b.c of my size....I am worth that little to you? Is that all you can see when you look at me? Why hate me?
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